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 By Kaycee Nilson May 8, 2006 Recently I have come to terms with the fact that I have lost another dear friend. This time it is a harder thing to do than when I changed it after the last friend I lost. My friend that I had based one of my pivotal characters in my novel and I are on the outs and she has made it clear that she wants nothing more to do with me. This kills me because just two short years ago, we were thick as thieves. The only reason I can imagine why she has stopped taking my phone calls is the fact that she is talking to my other ex-best friend. Remember the one that was like a brother to me? She hasn’t come out and told me to piss off, but I can read the signs. Momma didn’t raise a fool. This changing of the wall hurts more than the other because she was someone I considered close enough to be a sister rather than just a friend. I wish I knew the real reason why she has shut me out of her life, but it hurts that she won’t give me the time of day. I am in pain, I literary lost a best friend. There is nothing that anyone can do about my plight this time. Even a f@ck off would be better than the silent treatment I have received. But if that’s the way she wants to be, then so be it. She was supposed to officiate the wedding between Dan and I, but she won’t return my calls or my emails, so what am I supposed to think? All I can do is to take down those pictures. They hurt too much to see them and remember the way we used to be. The pictures all have the two of us laughing and smiling, but now there are tears instead of happiness when I see those pictures. When someone cuts me out of their life, I have a tendency to cut them out of mine to the point of changing the pictures on our family wall. I take down the pictures that have that person in them. It just makes me too sad to see those pictures and to remember the happy times because my mind will flash forward to the bad times. The bad times out number the good. I had the depression that goes along with this day. I hate going through the pictures on the wall, taking them out of the frames that I had lovingly put those pictures in and then finding new pictures to put in them. Thank goodness this time, there are only three frames to change out. I have replaced the pictures with pictures of my kids and one of Greg and his lovely wife, Wanda. At this point, they have treated me like family and I feel like they are part of our family. Even though Greg has to come in and help me on a basis when Dan is at work, I still think of him as a brother and Wanda has helped me by just being there to listen and I have tried to do the same for her. That’s what more than friends do for each other. ------------ About the author: Kaycee Nilson has completed her first novel, "Night Falls on Chicago." The first two chapters can be viewed at http://www.KayceeNilson.com. Besides writing columns for Useless-Knowledge and Speedway Media, Kaycee is currently working on two more novels, "From the Mind of a Vampire", and "I'll Love You Til You Die." If you have enjoyed what you read, or would like to leave Kaycee a message, please visit her message board at http://www.KayceeNilson.com/Board Email: Kaycee@kayceenilson.com Comment on this article here! ------------ All articles are EXCLUSIVE to Useless-Knowledge.com. Please link to this article rather than copying and pasting it onto your site (which would be unauthorized and illegal). |
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