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Mar. 10, 2006 Ever since the disappearance of Natalee Holloway, I have had nightmares about what would happen if I lost one of my children. That nightmare became true for me twice this week. Sunday, my oldest and only daughter did not walk into the front door until 5:30 am. Today I get a call from her father saying he hasn’t seen her in 24 hours. My heart sank. As any parent would do, I hit panic mode quick, fast and in a hurry. She finally called her Dad to come pick her up. Then she got on the phone to me and I lost it totally. I started yelling at her and crying with relief at the same time. She tried to put a guilt trip on me by saying “Well you left 5 years ago!’ To which I replied that I was not 16, and what I did was totally different than what she is pulling. I left an abusive relationship and moved in with a man that for the life of me, I can’t fathom why he loves me. But to have your child disappear of her own accord is inexcusable and then you wonder what all they have been into while they were not in your sight. This isn’t the first time she has done this, when she lived with Dan and I, she stayed out all night at some boy’s house of which she gave us the wrong number to and we had no idea of where she was until the next morning when she called us. She had the audacity to say that we didn’t care or else we would have called. I told her that phone lines go both ways. I also told her that she gave me the wrong number that I had repeated to her 3 times. No one told anyone of us that being a parent is always going to be fun and games. It’s not like each child comes with an owner’s manual. And all three of my children are different from each other as they can be. The teen years with my daughter may be easier if I did have a manual. “Chapter 12 – The Unwritten Sneak Out And Stay Out All Night Law” But then if I had a manual, I could understand the three-year-old all of the time instead of just once in a while and I would also know how to get him to poop in the potty. Dr. Spock won’t help me; he hasn’t had to deal with lying, drug use, attempted suicides and drinking. And all this was before she was 16. Now that she is 16, there are still the same fears and worries. The first thing her Father said to me was “Don’t Worry.” I’m sorry but worry goes with the territory of being a mother. Even my own mother still worries about us and all of us are over the age of 30. I guess you never stop being a mother. But what kills me is the fact that she doesn’t see what is wrong. She obviously hasn’t followed Natalee’s case. My daughter really is becoming a very worrisome creature. I worry all the time. I only hope that she reads this column as one of love and fear for a child and not me trying to be mean and hateful. I Love You Butterfly, Always And Forever……… ------------ About the author: Kaycee Nilson has completed her first novel, "Night Falls on Chicago." The first two chapters can be viewed at http://www.KayceeNilson.com. Besides writing columns for Useless-Knowledge, Kaycee is currently working on two more novels, "From the Mind of a Vampire", and "I'll Love You Til You Die." If you have enjoyed what you read, or would like to leave Kaycee a message, please visit her message board at http://www.KayceeNilson.com/Board Email: Kaycee@kayceenilson.com Comment on this article here! ------------ All articles are EXCLUSIVE to Useless-Knowledge.com. Please link to this article rather than copying and pasting it onto your site (which would be unauthorized and illegal). |
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