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 By Jack Lepiarz Dec. 12, 2006 There comes a time in most people's lives where they're not really sure where their home is. It comes at different times in each person's life, but I think that it's most prevalent during the college years. For most people, it's their first time away from the house they grew up in (or at least spent the first few years of their life in), and they're not sure where they feel most comfortable--at their dormitory, or at their house. That's how I feel now--I mean, I'm used to moving around (of course, I'm also used to staying in one spot for long periods of time). Over the course of my life, I've moved three times, not counting all the times I've gone in between my parents' houses since I was six years old, and all the times I moved around with the Big Apple Circus. Now, I'm living in Boston, going to college, and now I'm really unsure as to where exactly I feel most at home. I spend the majority of my life here in Massachusetts now, but there are times when I really want to go back to New Jersey--even if it's just to re-live the summer. But when I visited Madison this Thanksgiving, I felt this overwhelming feeling of sadness from having to go back and forth between my father's and mother's houses. It got to the point where I didn't even unpack--I'd just take my suitcase back and forth between the two houses. I hate to feel like I'm ignoring one of my parents, but I also hate having to go back and forth between the two houses so much and the feelings of guilt I get when I leave one house to go to the other. I never got those feelings before I left for college, but now that I'm in New Jersey so rarely, I feel obligated to see both parents as much as possible. I don't think I've ever had any negative feelings about my parents' divorce. As far back as I can remember, this is the first time that I've ever even acknowledged it as anything than an ordinary nuisance. I have friends who complain about seeing their families too much. I understand that feeling--I've certainly felt that way before, but I would rather feel annoyed than guilty. Returning to Madison was kind of a trip down memory lane for me as well. It's hard for old acquaintances of mine--many of whom I haven't seen or spoken to since June or July, to understand that I'm a very different person than I was six months ago. And coming back to people who expect you to be gives you a very clear picture of what you used to be as opposed to what you are now. Sometimes, you don't always like the changes you've undergone. Those are some of the feelings I felt when I came home from college for the first time in my life. I'd like to thank my friend Colleen for providing my inspiration for this article, and many other articles over the past two years. ------------ About the author: Jack Lepiarz is an 18-year-old college student at Emerson College in Boston. He also co-hosts the Katherine and Jack Show on UthTV.com and has been performing various circus talents for the past several years. Though often described as stubborn and egotistical, he tries to keep an open mind and treat others the way he would like to be treated. Email: Jackwuzhere42@aol.com Comment on this article here! ------------ All articles are EXCLUSIVE to Useless-Knowledge.com and are not allowed to be posted on other websites. ARTICLE THIEVES WILL BE PROSECUTED! |
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